trying!

Life has been pretty crazy for the last 3 weeks! Ava is amazing and trying at the same time. She really is a good baby, I just forgot what it was like to have a newborn. She is very demanding and wants what she wants when she wants it. Usually this is not a problem, but Zach is the same way! If they both want me at the same time then that is where the problem lies. I have two strong willed children and I know that will serve them well in the future. As for now, I just have to figure out how to balance the wills and make them both feel secure and loved.
That aside, Zach loves his sister. He always wants to touch and kiss her. He actually gets angry if he can't be "nice" to her when he gets the urge. Even if she is eating, I must find a way to let him kiss her or risk him throwing a fit. It can be very entertaining and, as I mentioned, trying at the same time.

intense

I love being a mom, don't get me wrong, but at this point in time I have to wonder if I am absolutely out of my mind. I am having ANOTHER baby on Thursday. Zach is still a baby! What am I thinking? I'm sure we will all adjust to the massive change that is about to take over our lives, but until that adjustment is complete, I don't know if I will be able to relax. I am so excited for Ava's arrival, but at the same time I am nervous to be leaving Zach for 4 days. He will come to the hospital after a couple of days to meet his sister before we bring her home. I just have to wonder how he is going to take it. Like I said, he is still such a baby himself. I will update with our progress soon. I just have to keep telling myself that millions of families go through the same thing and turn out just fine.